偶尔

在我有空的时候
偶尔我会想起你

想起我们四目交接的时候
想起我们相遇的时候
想起我们每一天都在同样的地点相见

我希望这是缘分

但是我们还会不会见面
却还是个未知数


很想知道
你想我吗
你还记得我吗

if you think I am fine, then you are wrong.

:)

I was studying

and

I heard my mind singing


You are my God, the great I am
and You are the rock on which I stand
You reign
You reign O'Lord
You reign
You reign

not right

I know I shouldn't feel and think this way.
but you're constantly disappointing me.
I had enough of it.
I need you and you are not here.
so, when you need me, I won't be there anymore.

this is a revenge.
because I am a girl. revengeful girl.


I am heart-broken.

so.

I won't get any call from you anymore?

I do miss you sometimes.

time

anything bad can happen anytime,
but not the week before period.
It will only make things worse!

I am sick, physically, physiologically, and psychologically.
I need time.



..to recover

oh well

my mind has been messed up.
I feel tired.

and helpless.


I shouldn't have say yes when you said you gonna come over just before my exam.
I was wrong, but it is truth.

I shouldn't have say yes, I will go for you when you asked me to go over during winter break.
I was wrong, but it can't change anymore.

I just realized that how wrong I was.
but what to do.


You gonna come over in 2 weeks time.
which is the period that I will totally f*ck up or whatever.
That will be the time that I will not be myself.
That will be lifeless.
That will be scary.
That will not be anything that you can expect!
and I am scared to show you that,
THAT.IS.ME.