oh well

my mind has been messed up.
I feel tired.

and helpless.


I shouldn't have say yes when you said you gonna come over just before my exam.
I was wrong, but it is truth.

I shouldn't have say yes, I will go for you when you asked me to go over during winter break.
I was wrong, but it can't change anymore.

I just realized that how wrong I was.
but what to do.


You gonna come over in 2 weeks time.
which is the period that I will totally f*ck up or whatever.
That will be the time that I will not be myself.
That will be lifeless.
That will be scary.
That will not be anything that you can expect!
and I am scared to show you that,
THAT.IS.ME.